Why is it I can never seem to get away from my past?
So I'm sitting at the table sewing on some buttons on pants and my mother comes in from outside and asks if something is going between
and I? Course I just look at my mother weird since
I haven't seen or talked to her for about like three years so I told her "No, why would you bother to ask that? Is she out walking pass our house or something?" My mother said no but has seen her mother driving passed and turning down the middle road and then making her way down to her street. I didn't see it as too weird but my mother said this was the third time seeing her driving in that exact same routine. So should I find this odd?


Probably since dad use to do the same thing for MANY years but was just looking for scraps of things to either fix up or to use to make something else. Though since our friendship ended, he'd was always constantly be driving passed my house very slowly just scoping out our house then driving away very quickly. Though that hasn't happened for months now, maybe he got caught or called on it? That's possible and serves him right, freakin weirdo. But now it seems her mother has been picking up this trait and my mother is complaining about it and has complained about when the father was doing this. So I guess the question is, what to do? Can I or should I even bother getting back into it with them? I mean it's not like they tried anything but really though, it's getting old..and it makes them seem like they are planning or obsessed with watching my family and I. I don't know what to do, I really am tired of this whole feuding families shit..I can't even take a freakin' walk around my neighborhood without reminding myself to avoid walking down a certain road just because I don't want to hear later that I'm "taunting" or possibly "stalking" or whatever she make think I'm doing by 'walking passed her house'. It's just dumb and I honestly don't think I should have to do that in the place I've lived practically all my life just because I don't want confrontation or get bitched about it.

-sigh-

I think I'm gonna have to send a note one of these days and ask her if we can just have a whole day to just sit down and talk about this whole fuckin issue. I think three plus years is far long enough for this to be going on and it's time to end it or patch it up in some way just so our families can have some freakin' peace. I'm not asking to be friends again, that's not it at all..I just want things to be somewhat resolved so we can close this chapter of our lives. High school is long gone, we're adults and we should be able to sit down and talk about this like adults. I hope I can at least be given that opportunity.

Wow, this has probably been one of the longest journals since like...2004? Crazy..sorry to rant, but I need to write all that. Just to get some of it off my shoulders, though I do hope I can get the rest of it off someday.